Faithfulness

Let all creation rejoice before the LORD, for he comes, he comes to judge the earth. He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples in his faithfulness.
Psalm 96:13

I feel that I have been tested and challenged by God this week and I am ashamed to admit that I did not pass some of those tests and challenges very successfully. I have been struggling with being faithfull in that God has me completely in His hands and my life is in His control. I know that I'm better off being completely surrendered into His hands and don't know why I doubt Him and His control of my life, I just do sometimes. It seems like I'll completely surrender to Him and things go like they should be going which to me is living in complete awe of what God is doing in my life. But then I get rapped up in my job, family and everything else going on around me except God. I feel a heavy load of guilt when I get this way. I get to the point that it's almost like I'm scared to completely surrender to God again and doubt that He can take care of me the way I think I should be taken care of. I shouldn't be worried about every detail of my life, God will take care of that. I should be rejoicing in the things He has provided for me and my family, the life and creation He gave me to enjoy and be Blessed by. God is so good to me!