Friday, March 20, 2009


Let all creation rejoice before the LORD, for he comes, he comes to judge the earth. He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples in his faithfulness.
Psalm 96:13
I feel that I have been tested and challenged by God this week and I am ashamed to admit that I did not pass some of those tests and challenges very successfully. I have been struggling with being faithfull in that God has me completely in His hands and my life is in His control. I know that I'm better off being completely surrendered into His hands and don't know why I doubt Him and His control of my life, I just do sometimes. It seems like I'll completely surrender to Him and things go like they should be going which to me is living in complete awe of what God is doing in my life. But then I get rapped up in my job, family and everything else going on around me except God. I feel a heavy load of guilt when I get this way. I get to the point that it's almost like I'm scared to completely surrender to God again and doubt that He can take care of me the way I think I should be taken care of. I shouldn't be worried about every detail of my life, God will take care of that. I should be rejoicing in the things He has provided for me and my family, the life and creation He gave me to enjoy and be Blessed by. God is so good to me!


Jenilee said...

God is good, isn't He? and, faithful to show us that He cares about the little things in our lives. hope your next week is filled with moments of joy from Him.

God Bless!

Momma H said...

Someone told me, a long time ago when I was really into the perfectionist thinking and feeling all that guilt, that I needed to stop "should-ing" on myself. It sounds terrible, but he was right. God wants us to pick ourselves up and try again - just like we do with our kids when they are learning to walk.

We are all learning to walk in God's way if we are committed to him, and he just wants us to keep on trying, I think, without all the recriminations we pile on ourselves because we didn't, couldn't, wouldn't, etc.

Hang in there, girl, Father loves you even when you don't perform perfectly! I promise!